Yes, those elusive moments, you know the ones that I am talking about. The ones you dream about when pregnant with your first kid...quiet, peaceful, zen-like moments when you have that certain touch or perfect eye contact from your child. It doesn't matter what age they are they are incredible when they happen. It's as if God has given you the gift of each other and at that exact moment you can almost understand the love God has for you as one of His children. You don't have to work to love your child you just do - no matter what. Sorry husbands, parents, friends, etc., although you are loved dearly now, it was not love at first sight/meeting. Yes, I grew to love each of you but when I met Noah and Oliver for the first time it was love in it's purest form. With that being said, I just have to say that I am envious of all the moms that have more of those moments or at least I thought I was envious of them. My house, although fun and full of adventure, is in a constant state of motion (some call it chaos and mayhem). We may not always have clean hands, we may enjoy a gregarious round of belching instead or using our manners, we may jump on the furniture from time to time (how else will you get to the moon) and we may camp in front of the TV and have dinner so we don't miss the new episode of our favorite cartoon. And to the horror of some, we may even have and enjoy our dessert before a meal! To slow down and have those elusive moments with my boys is a rare experience. I am in a constant state of "one step behind-ism", catching up is a true test of my resiliency. My, what I call "mommy stamina", is pushed to its limits daily. I try to capture those moments but they seem to elude me and be just out of my reach. Which leads me to this; I realize that I may be the luckiest mom out there. Why? Because when those moments do happen I let nothing get in the way, nothing can stop me from just being there in the moment with my boys. It may only last a few seconds, be a quick stroke of my hair or even a silly little Eskimo kiss but it is ALL mine. So chaos and mayhem will continue to be a large part of our day. I will listen, be silly, teach, mend, feed, clean, in ways that others might find unorthodox but most importantly, I will capture and be a part of those elusive moments. Capture as many as you can, it's a true gift from God.
4 comments:
Geesh! Can you please give a kleenex warning next time? I love it and know exactly what you mean like every night when Trevor tells me "sweet dreams" or when on the plane on the verge of being sick all over my 4 year old is thoughtful enough to order me a Sprite when the beverage cart came by. You really do just love them!
Just want to clarify that it was me that was sick on the plane not Trevor.
VERY nicely said!!!! You are sooo right...those moments make it all worthwhile!
Wow Tiff - very well said. I totally agree & I have to admit that I teeter back & forth. Seems I can become totally consumed with the kids and FUN . . . then something "alerts me" . . . get organized . . . and the kids are like "Hey...what happened to fun playing mom?" Still working on balancing chaos & function. Basically I need a chill pill at times. Hey at least Im honest. One thing is for sure . . I cherish & Praise God for these days he has allowed me to be home raising my own kids. Loved this post!!!!
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